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Mysticalone519
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Name: Crystal
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Birthday: 5/19/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: On my spare time I like chillin wit my peoples or jus kickin it by myself thinkin , clearin my head, you kno things like that. And if im not doin that i like to mess wit the sewing machine a lil.... , yea people i can sew . Yea those are the things i like doin on my spare time
Expertise: Im good at sewing , giving advise to others, helpin othas, and listening
Message: message me
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Member Since:
3/19/2004
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| Yea its a little after eight, im tired as hell and i had a long day. Once again im back to a rough week with people commin up to me tellin me what my ex is doin, how he is, you kno tha type of stuff. I cant take this any longer its to much i mean i have people tellin me stuff every min of the day , its bad enough i have to deal with gettin over him this break up is worst than i thought it would be i tried holdin my head high and stayin strong but as always u kno as people we can bare but so much ,some poeple say and think we can bare everything when in reality we cant i say it like this the poeple who dont break down and as people as a whole we will eventually break down i dont care what anyone says its our human nature to do so its called having emotions and a heart. But anyhows as i was saying before im really confused and fucked up in da head cuz i hear from some people my ex did all these horrible things to me behind my bac , then i got others tellin me he didnt i dunno im jus confused i dont kno what to belive no more like i kno its ova between me and him at least for now , but i can see and feel how he felt when people were speadin rumors about me hurting him like i knew what he was sayin when he experinced this but i thought to myself shouldnt he know me betta by now? doesnt he trust me ? then it all back fired on me except the thing is i did turst him and da whole nine but i eman when u have so many people saying stuff u dotn really kno what to belive and now i kno how he felt . Even i must say listen to ppl fuck shit up in any situation cuz people are gonna always be people and do shit like that.......... its so much behind all this drama a part of me is hurt to the extreme then another part of me wants him bac wants my relationship wit him bac . Things are so rough on me i cant stop thinking about him i smell his scent everywhere i go , and i love him so much every night i pray to god and ask him to help me i need it so bad. I love him so much and its gettin da best of me , i iwsh so much that things get betta that i get him bac and dat i could get the old him again. Tommrow i have to talk to a freind of mines which happens to be a freind of his and this freind happens to kno alot more than i think and he jus may be the key to saving my relationship, to saving him , to saving me. Tonight im gonna pray to god and pray to him that he is the key and to pray to him that i dont loose kellen to pray to him that some how i can get him bac ,not oly him but my heart , a pice of mind and some faith , Theres too much goin on i can bearly bare it all everyday things get worse I hope for the betta of it all ............. well people thats enough of my drama for one night jus pray and hope for me that things turn oput well ..... | | |
| Yesterday was the craizest days of all days it felt as if my whole world turned around and upside down. It all went down like this see i havent seen one of my brothers in like two years because he had to leave to go fight ova in iraq then that same year he got married and then my nephew was born.Now thursday night for some weird reason i got a phone call from him sayin he was back from iraq and he was commin to see me friday.I havent heard from him in so long then for some reason i hear from him it was crazy cuz him ,his wife, and my nephew came to see me . And from that very moment i saw them it was like so much pain and hurt i experinced all the past years of my life had been broken , like a broken part of my heart deep inside me had been fixed . Its crazy i cant really explain it , then when i saw my nephew he gave me a nice warm hug and a smile that could brighten anyones life anyone whos in the darkor goin through hard times, i mean it was one of those smiles a person could neva forget it changed my whole world and i will neva forget that for the rest of the days I live to walk this earth . Then when it was time for them to leave the embrace my brother gave me i felt like i neva wanted to let go like i neva wanted that moment to end, when my nephew hugged me i felt like an angel was huggin me and as if i could of cried, and when his wife hugged me (my sis in law) I felt as if i found a new close freind as if a new freindship had began.Yesterday was really sentamental and it was like as if God was sendin me messages about my life not jus wit my family but everything im goin through as if he's answerin my prayers . I have a long rough road yet still to go , but ill make it . Hopefully about time the summer kicks in thing should start t clear up, things are really tough right now considerin i jus lost the love of mylife the person of which whom i really wanted to spend the rest of my life wit i had been in a long term /serious relationship for 9 months and they were a long 9 months and jus last sunday it had been broken off ....... its tough right now belive me , but anyhows im tired as hell ima take my ass to bed.
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